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Baby Blues: What it is not about.

Last December I published a book called Baby Blues.  When I went to look it up at Amazon, all I found was the cartoon Baby Blues. I didn’t realized my book would fall under that search. My book is called Baby Blues and it is not about the cartoon nor is it about Post partum depression. Yes I looked it up. Unfortunately, you won’t be reading about a woman after she gave birth. Baby Blues is quite different from that. Maybe I should have given it another title but that was the title that came to me.

My book is also not about a happy life on the ranch. A reviewer wrote that she thought my book would be just that by reading the description. Oops! My bad. Yes. the story is set on the ranch of Montana, I did my research the best I could. I had hope I would live on a ranch before it’s publication, but it didn’t work out that way. So when you read the description, don’t compare it to other books set on a ranch. Or you will be disappointed.

I’m guessing that other authors who writes such stories, wrote a whole series set on a ranch. My series is not like that. Book one is set mostly in rural California and book three will also be set in California. As for book 4, probably in California or might be Montana. I haven’t decided.

What you will read about is a woman dealing with her infertility, her husband with his secret who by the way is not controlling. Has anyone ever heard of a loved one wanting to protect his mate? Eric loves his wife. Should I just have him say, “Sure, you can work outside the home?” And not care what happens to his wife?  At least he doesn’t abuse her or beat her.

Mean reviewers reminds me  of the media and the left. They hate Trump. They are upset because Hilary didn’t win so they say all kinds of evil against him. I recently found out that a pastor of all people who is not a Trump supporter went to one of his rallies in Florida.  He took with him, but this man already had his mind made up. No matter what good came out of the rally, he already saw him as evil.

Maybe that is a bad comparison, but that’s how I feel. I upset the reviewer so she gave me a three star review. The book didn’t live up to her expectation.

So what is my book about? It is about a woman who is depressed because she found her life unfulfilling. She thought working outside the home, but instead she saw reminders of what she couldn’t have and she ran into danger. Her husband wanted to protect her which was why he didn’t want her working outside the home. His half brother escaped from prison and he had one thing on his mind: Raping Julie. He did this to get back at Eric. So not only  is she infertile but she becomes a victim of rape.

So how is my book Christian? Julie has great faith. She listens to a kind of music that most people never heard about, but like praise and worship, it brings you close to God. It is called Soaking Worship. While Praise and Worship, you sing dance, shout and has different beats, soaking  is soft and relaxing. Think of it as soaking in a bathtub full of suds. You’re relax and you focus on the words (if there is singing or it is spoken) Julie  doesn’t give up on God but draws close to him and it has helped her to heal.

There is a saying that is true: You can’t judge a book by its cover.  So please give my book a chance. Thank you.



Hope For Me


Recently I was getting discouraged and thought maybe I should just throw out  “The Butterfly and the Cocoon. It would have been my  second rewrite  of Marge, but I was taking the suggestion of another writer. I often  heard you should “show” and not “tell” but not using “is or “was” so much?  Ever since then, I looked at what I wrote and frustration sets in. How do I replace my “to be” verbs  with something better? Well my book not sell just because I use “to be” verbs? Then I started reading “She Belongs To Me” By Carmen DeSouza. I would like to meet her (Or him) and thank him!  Why? Because the writer used “to be” verbs and in my opinion, I like the book so far! Maybe I am different, but I see nothing wrong with  “to be” verbs. It is not like  it will be like that  in every  sentence, but I should write what comes  naturally to me.  I have made writing so hard because I listen to people when I should listen to my instincts instead.


Thank you, Carmen!

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Life as a Writer

Ever since I was a  young  lady or maybe a little girl (I can’t remember how long ago it was), I have love to write.  I mainly write to escape my every day boring life. I never thought I would write before I teach. I knew it would take money to become a successful writer yet a few years back, I shared one of my stories with a  friend  and she encourage me to get it published. She always had faith in me and she has written  several books before I have, but then it got hard.  How do I find someone who is not a scam to publish my book? I began as a naive and trusting person. I thought I would look in my handy writers market guide book and look up publishers. I had big dreams that Bethany House would consider me, but they  were not accepting submissions. In fact, most don’t without an agent.  I have been told that writing is hard but looking for a publisher is harder. Not many will take on an unknown author.

I went to a prayer group and posted my prayer request. One of the admins suggested I try PublishAmerica. I wish I could have gone with my instinct, but I listened to her.  At first I was excited when my first book was published until later in life I had found out who PublishAmerica really was– a scam publishing group. Of course, there will be those who will argue with me, but I have more than enough evidence to believe that they are. Not only that, but my first book is flawed–Lesson learned.

I am in a  great writers group on facebook and met some wonderful  people there!  Without them, I think I would be lost. I needed  a lot of advice and suggestions because I am new!

Isaiah42:16 states that God will lead blind Israel down unfamiliar paths and smooth out the rough places and I will tell you that the paths I have  trodden down is unfamiliar to me:  Looking for business to let me do book signings, trying to promote my books the best I can are things I have never done! Going into businesses and asking managers if I can do a book signing is unnerving!  I really hate rejections! (Which is why you will never see my be anything like my deceased father– a salesman). Most of the time I had to depend on the leadings of the Holy Spirit.  When I don’t, it does not work out.  For my first book signing, I didn’t ask the Holy Spirit if I should do it in the library. I saw that someone else have done it and decided  to ask if I can have  a book signing in the library. Once again I had high hopes which ended up to be a flop!  A friend told me that it is not about how many books you sell but promoting your book, but what is a book signing if  you sign no books? Grant it I finally got featured in the paper.

I learn from my mistakes and I move on. To be honest, I am glad I did not sell many books since Marge is flawed. (Things I learn after that: You need an editor and a book cover design artist.)

Yes, I thought writing  was easy until I read Slow Your Prose by James W. Lewis. I am finding that I am not really gifted with words. I just write what comes to me. It is easier to tell then to show. Writing sentences with “is” and ” “was:”  “is easier than to write it differently.  I hear this nagging voice that tells me I should  give up, but I know that people will tell me not to.

My second book has been out since November and I have come across some “rough places”  I have waited for several businesses to contact me (after I made follow up calls) and  yet no word. I wanted to give up. However,  I have seen the rough places slowly being smoothed out for me. I have a friend who suggested I try Berean Christian Bookstore and even though I had to go through another channel, I was able to get as far as the manager to at least have 3 of my books ordered   and she would let me know when it comes.

God is good! He will work out all things for me as I continue to trust him to  lead me  down unfamiliar paths. Someday I will have someone edit my manuscript and design my book covers for me at low or no cost. Why? Because I believe God’s divine favor, that is why.